Moving on.

what is so tough about moving on? some people might ask. well here's my reply.

you think it's easy? letting go of the one person you truly care about? Letting go of someone that you would die for? letting go of the guy/girl that you thought was the best thing that ever happened to you?

you think it's easy letting go of what once use to be part of your life?

well let me tell you, it's not.

moving on, it's something that takes away part of you for awhile. a part that is in-charge of your happiness. moving on, it's like taking away part of a puzzle, leaving it incomplete. moving on, it's like a broken jar, it's empty. so are you when you try to move on. 

but. moving on is part and parcel of life. you might think that meeting he is the most amazing thing that ever happened to you. you might think his smile is what fuels you to go on. but just hold on that thought. and look around. 

there are so many people around you. 7 billion people in the world. and while you think that he is the one, even if he just treats you like a friend, the one might just have walked past you.

so here I have to say something, im currently trying really hard to move on. from a guy that use to like me. from a guy that now... idek. but let me tell you something. he might be the best thing that has happened to me up till now. and if i could pick anyone in the world now in an alternate universe, it would be him. but, i have to come back to reality. I have to come back to a world that i know, chances of him liking me is probably one to a million. and in this world, many a time, people don't get what they want. many a time, people get disappointed. this is just the world we live in. and when things don't go our way, we have to move forward. let go of what was holding us back. I want to move on because if I continue with him, at the end of the day, tears would be shed, hearts would be broken and for me my world would start crumbling. and at the end of the day, I would suffer the most. 

moving on might not be easy. it would probably cause a lot of trouble for you and friends. moving on is worse than a break up. but, you know what. 

it is his lost that he didn't pick you. someone that treated him like he was their world. 

he lost a girl that loved him and you lost a guy that you loved. 

hugs and kisses.

enough is enough

isn't it crazy how one year can change so many things?

In a year, people closest to you can leave you. Then you will have people you never thought you'll be frens with being the closest.

For the past one year so much had happened, it helped me mature as a person. To learn to forgive more easily. But even so, many a times, I still can't control my temper especially when people take me for granted.

Recently, I, again, fell out with one of my friends. But it is only because she was being unreasonable. For the past 2 and a half years, I have grown so much more tolerant towards her than I first met her. I learn to take in all the bullshit she gives my friends and I and just keep it inside. But then , she is taking this for granted. Every time we fight, it is always about the same thing. About how she is always so damn selfish and how she is so self-centred. I can't even count how many damn times we fought over the same thing. She never changes. Not even the slightest thought about it. All she says is, you should accept me for who I am. Yes, I am your friend. I should accept you for who you are. But then again, it is because I am your friend, I have the obligation to tell you when something is wrong with you. Obviously, something is wrong with you. You should be thinking about ways to change and not say everyone should accept you. Because this is the real world. People judge all the time. Im telling you because I want to help you become a better person. But nooooooo, everyone damn person must accept you for who you are. Who the hell do you think you are? A princess? Please. And, like what my title suggests, enough is enough. I can forgive you once, twice, thrice and blah blah blah But don't play with my patience. It doesn't mean that I learn to tolerate you means I don't have a bottom line. And this time, you crossed it bad.The thing is, when she apologised, she said that I was over reacting. Really? Has no one taught you how to apologise? If you don't want to do it, don't do it. It is so insincere.

But the thing here today, is that I am no longer mad at her. I forgave her. It's just that for the past 2 and a half years, she gave me so much drama in life and I don't think that I want to continue it. Because a girl that backstabs isn't worth it.

A little background:
She said I was two faced, I don't like to forgive people and I am a hypocrite to this guy that I was infatuated with.

I mean, what kind of friend is that. If she said it to my face, maybe I wouldn't have been so pissed. But she said it behind my back. But then I guess I should accept her for who she is right. So yeah, I do accept her, but I don't want to be friends with her. 

Acceptance is importance. But so is trust.

I am telling all of you. If you cant do ''Chicks over Dicks" , don't say it.

Enough is enough, don't let someone run all over your head just because she is your friend.