Fights. Betrayals. Backstabbing.
Why do all of them happen?
One simple reason, insecurities.
Insecurities causes you to doubt yourself, hence you feel the need to pull people down so you don't look that bad.
But all of these problems are like math sums, they are long and you really have to work them out until the last part then you find out that it is wrong. But Edna said, but when you go back and work it out right, in the end the ans will still be correct.
But what if you don't want the ans to be correct. What if I'm so sick and tired of nonsense. What if I just want a simple life. I just want a couple of friends who I can count on when I'm breaking down. I just want a couple of friends that understand me.
My friends have been trying to get me to talk to someone I fought with again. But they don't understand. Nobody will understand unless they been through exactly how I did and even then some might be wrong as well.
I understand that she is still friends with my friends so what? I don't have/want to have control over my friends' life right? I mean they can make any friends they want. But if that is the case, wouldnt my friends have to respect my decision as well?
I'm not good at expressing myself with words. I can't apologise face to face. I just can't put my words strong enough to express the feelings I want it to mean.
Don't judge me for getting angry at her for such an incident because you don't know what my life has been like.
and trust me, you def won't want to go there.
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