3826

3826. It's a number that means a lot me. It isn't exactly a number, more like a code name. A code name that speaks so much to me. People that knows me, would know what this code means. 

I smile because you are around me.

I live because you make life worth living.

I breathe because I need air like how I need you. 

It's a name. A name that affected for the past one and a half year and still affects me now. My heartbeat increases, my face reddens, butterflies start coming up.

Yet, all I want is to see him every single day. Because he makes my day better just by smiling. He doesn't know that, but he does. A rough week passes, all I need to see is his smile. It makes everything worth it. I force myself to go through such tough weeks with a smile because at the end of the week, I see him. 

My friends would know. My normal relaxed and low voice turns up to a excited and high voice just at the glimpse of him. My friends would know that I turn into a totally different person around him. A better person.

Though I know he'll never be mine, I can't let go. I love him. And this time I'm sure. This time, I am willing to do anything. Even if I get hurt. I do it willingly for him. 

Because

He is worth every single tear I shed

He is worth every effort I make.

I love 3826.